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Date: 2010-04-07 18:39
Subject: Writer's Block: Pet talk
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If your pet could talk, what is the first thing s/he would say to you?

Let's see ...

 My parents dog:

Marley: Play! Cuddles! Toy! OMG A CAR! Can I sleep in your bed tonight? OMG ANOTHER CAR!!!!!!!!!1

My four rats:

Hamond: I love you mummy!
Dexter: When is Zoe coming over?
Elton: Fuck off. I hate everyone.
Oscar: Muuuuuuuum, lemme go, I wanna explore!

My housemates dog:

Mitch: I'm just gonna lay on your bed for a while, k? Not to sleep, no way, just a little cuddle and uh ... *snore*

My housemates cats:

Max: I know I'm cute, but can you put me down for a few seconds? Please?
Mr Blue: I know I'm cute, so why the fuck am I not getting cuddles? Like, constantly? I'm supremely offended.

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Date: 2010-03-06 17:37
Subject: Big guns, little dicks
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Mood:horrified, ashamed, miserable
We didn't sleep much. A little because it was so uncomfortable, a little because talking was a good distraction from the speculation of how the day would unfold. We got out of bed at 4:30am, dressed for cold, wet weather, and headed towards the lagoon in two groups. It was a long walk through the muddy water, and we waited for the sun to rise, the hunters to settle and the ducks to arrive. My memory of the morning is a little fuzzy. Eventually we found ourselves outside a "hide" - the tiny enclosed, camoflouged spaced the hunters hid in. Mister hunter didn't like this much. We stationed ourselves around the hide with bright flags on long bamboo poles and whistles to deter the ducks when they came within range of the hunter. We weren't always successful, and although we saved a lot of birds, too many still dropped from the sky, wounded, and into the water. Yvette caught an injured duck and held him in her arms, where he soon died before anyone had a chance to help him. We spread out again, ready to start waving and whistling, more determined than ever to save whoever we could. I stood shin-deep in mud, crotch-deep in water and leaned against my flag, crying as almost everyone did after that. The hunter grew angry and tried to steal a flag, threatening to shoot it from Zoe's hands, the same hunter who earlier spat his food in a girls face, raised his hand to hurt her and told us "drugged up Dole-bludgers" to "get back to Sandy Bay". She had to be taken to hospital by helicopter later due to a fish sting.

On our way back to camp when the ducks had stopped flying (but the hunters hadn't stopped shooting - at what I don't know), I found the shell from a shotgun that had been used to kill. I can't quite bring myself to put it down yet.

As hard as it is, I can forgive the ignorant. I'll never forgive a hunter. It's monsterous, perverted and sickening. Shame on them, the absolute scum of the human race.
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Date: 2010-01-24 17:58
Subject: Yup
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Dear Everything,

You suck. Really, you do.

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Date: 2010-01-02 15:19
Subject: *facepalm*
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So, I'm nothing but a bitch =/ Heh. FORGIVE ME, LJ. I'll never leave this long again. And I get the feeling I'm being honest this time ...

Now, let's see :) let's go with the short and dirty version of what's been happening since my last entry. Keep in mind, that despite all this, I'm reasonably stable ;)

& I scored a house with Yvette: an awesome chick, fellow vegan and lecturer at the art school. Things started fine, continued fine, and were awesome until earlier today ... when I got an e-mail from her (I've been staying with my parents over Christmas and New Years) saying that her ex-husband wants to sell his share of the house. Yvette can't afford to buy his share so she get's to lose her house, and I get to be kicked out. Sigh. I have 2 months to find a new place and find a new job in the city before semester starts.

& My girlfriend and I split up. Long story short: she was on pot, which would have been fine if not for how abusive she got while she was on it. She always felt horrid for it and I always forgave her, but in the end the guilt was too much for her and she left me. Right before a camping trip I was going on with my friends. I was ready to stick it out, to help her through her problems, but shit happens. I was a bad friend on that camping trip, and smoked a lot, but I've kicked the smokes to the curb and rarely drink. I think my new drug is The Sims 3 but I think that's better than cancer-sticks and booze.

So those are the two major points of interest. I've been surprisingly Zen about most of it, really. Except where I work. Customers give me the shits. I'm not cut out for customer service, no waaaay ;)

So how are you guys? ^_^ Have a good Chrissy, New Year?
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Date: 2009-10-25 17:16
Subject: Finally - an update!
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Location:Yvette's studio
Music:Bob Seger - C'est La Vie
Tags:pictures, rats, update
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Date: 2009-10-24 20:33
Subject: I'm back!!
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FUCK! I just wrote a WHOLE entry, which was HUGE, and it just fucking didn't work when I pressed send. Fuck fuck fuck!

I'm gonna post tomorrow >_<
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Date: 2009-08-29 17:31
Subject: (no subject)
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Music:My playlist titled "The Sound of Settling"
Tags:isuck, update
OMG. I just wrote a massive fucking entry, then accidentally closed the page and lost the lot!!1

So, I'm officially the worst LJ friend ever. I have a million excuses but let's just put it down to, I'm an asshead. Here's some updates for anyone still following me:

I'm still living with my parents and working at their shop. And I hate it. Not being with my parents, I love that part. But this town, the people, the job ... they're kinda crushing me :( There's just too much pressure on me and the people, gosh! They're always ranting about "those city people" and how they kill their animals ... obviously not things I wanna hear about. The town is boring and far from anything that I love. I'm currently making plans to move back to the city, get an apartment on my own just outside of the CBD. Also, I came out to my parents! It basically went like this:

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I don't get to see them as much as I'd like. Which isn't my fault, but sometimes they make me feel like it is, not because they're mean about it, but because they want to see me more than I'm capable of seeing them. It's a lot of pressure. Sometimes I'm busy at the shop, sometimes I'm down or tired, and sometimes I'm staying with my girlfriend and don't want to leave her just yet. Speaking of!

Z? The girl who I've had two flings with, both of which went sour (once because of my insecurities and once because she wanted to go faster than me). Long story short: She invited me out for coffee, we made out at a party, and it some how ended with me her telling me it was up to me to take the first step because she didn't want a repeat of last time. A couple of weeks later, I asked her to be my girlfriend. And even though we both have issues still (but we're both medicated now lol), we seem to be in a much smoother harmony than before. I don't believe in this shit, but it's almost like we're meant to be together ... or at least that we can't be "just friends" :) I just care for her too much, and I never stopped. And she seems to feel the same, which is wonderful :) It's the one area of my life that I don't have a reason to cry about sometimes (that sounds emo ... it's not that bad really, I'm just a baby lol)

Later I'll post more about the more in depth, interesting stuff, but I'm actually at work now *facepalm* Has to go *work* O_o
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Date: 2009-07-05 14:18
Subject: Sorry sorry sorry!
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Okay. so .... I'm a slut! But before I explain that, my dog ate my computer charger so that's why I've been MIA for a while ... but fear not! I has a new one now :)

Anyway, yes. I'm a whore. I went to a mates party last week and ended up kissing 3 girls and 1 guy, multiple times each and including two three-way pashes. *facepalm* But everyone was cool in the morning, and everyone else was as bad as me, so .... you know. The guy was one of my best mates. but he asked me for a hug in the morning, possibly to make sure we were cool. I'm cool and I think he is too. But one of them was my ex. Which isn't really that significant since her and I have made-out at every party we've been to together lol. Oh, alcohol.

Speaking of her, I spent the day before the party hanging out with her, at a coffee shop, then a museum, then her house - and her house is cool! Really awesome, with gorgeous room mates. And she's a great chick. It's a pity we didn't work out, but we tried twice, you know? Then again, we've been talking a lot more lately and she invited me over to her place ... meh. We'll see what happens :)

So sorry again about the lack of communication. LOVES
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Date: 2009-06-21 12:22
Subject: TONGUEZ
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Because everlostdead asked to see it, here, in all my fabulous glory, is me and my fat tongue:

Okay, so it's less "fabulous" and more "retarded", but give me a break, guys! It's really hard to stick your tongue out when it's doubled in size!!

... and is it just me, or does it look like I have a mullet? COZ I TOTALLY DON'T! I just have a huge fringe and my wet hair brushed back lol
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Date: 2009-06-21 08:37
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YOU GUYS. I'm starving.
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